Looking busy

I guess it's been a while since I last wrote something, so I want to explain(try to) the reasons why. To sum it up, I tried to be busy, or more like it look busy by doing the stuff we do nowadays to look and feel busy: music, movies, TV series, games, books and my dear old friend alcohol. Also gym which is probably the only good thing on the list.

I was depressed again (obviously) for a few days and it was pretty bad. Before that I was feeling so great, excited for the new year and the possibilities which awaits me blah blah blah. Then bham! bitch you are depressed! because you are an attention whore who gets depressed when she/he doesn't get enough of it =))) This could be an explanation. When I am lonely and bored it gets me down. Everything sucks and I feel hopeless and that everyone is against me. Now I can see that is stupid and not true, but in those moments it feels so right. This reminds me of the best motto in life: "Life sucks and then you die!". Funny and true at the same time. Apparently it helps to talk about your stupid thoughts to get out of the misery. Confront the people you thought they did/said something to hurt you, when in fact you misunderstood them and your mind went crazy about nothing really serious. So everything looks much worse in that moment, after it passes it looks just dumb.

Next topic to complain about is money money money. Being an adult is exhausting, right? I mean I am so grateful for my job and my salary, my life is pretty great. But as any human being I want more and more and moreeeee. I want to do everything: travel the world, buy fancy clothes, eat, drink, help my family, buy stuff I don't really need etc. Thank God I don't have kids, I can barely sustain myself :)) So it's hard to have money for everything, expect if you have a sugar daddy/mommy of course ;) I could really use one right now. I know the secret is to give up on some stuff, but it's not easy to do that unfortunately.

I wanted to finish this post with something positive, but I forgot what was that. Life good right now, I'm not depressed and I'm pretty busy. Still pour, but trying my best to save some money. I will try to write more because lately I was soooooo lazy, couch potato. I will blame it on the weather because let's be honest IT SUCKS ASS! I can't wait for the spring, this is not my time, I just want to sleep like a bear :))

PS: "Life sucks and then you die!"